Written on: Saturday, October 14, 2006 Time: 11:29 pm
To begin with, life has been dandy fine and calm again. Much gratitude to those few who leave words of encouragement and motivation for me. That was what I needed. (:
To my utter disbelief, my mom actually some what motivated me. Upon seeing the atrocious result printed on my report book, she then began enumerating the things that I should do for each particular subject, what and/or how I should revise and whatsnot. It suddenly triggered me that she has always been there for me but apparently, I took that for granted. A few days back, I was overwhelmed when I saw my room spick and span. My room has always been messy,dusty and filthy. To add on the list, my room is constantly filled with plenty of worksheets(while most of them are rubbish!) and mountains of books,ten year series,five year series and she practically sacrificed 4 hours of her break to actually clean up my room.
After all, all the naggings and scolding from my mom shows that she cares and love me. I'm such an asshole that I actually misunderstood her intentions.
Guess, the month of Ramadhan has really made me into a good better person. I'm proud to say that I'm now doing all the good deeds,throwing away all the vengeance and hatred BUT I've still yet to beribadah(pray).
Suddenly, it dawned on me..
Apa gunanya kalau kita hidup seribu tahun tapi sembahyang pun tidak.
(I'm bad at translating..moreover you peeps should know how atrocious my MT is!) "What's the use living a thousand years when one is not even praying."
What kind of Muslim am I?! Seriously.. I ought to be ashamed of myself.
tsk tsk!
PS: Thinesh, I know you wouldn't like me posting about you but I'm really really sorry that I showed you my attitude problem & made you pissed! I swear that shall never happen again.. And,breaking fast alone is totally PATHETIC! (=
Written on: Saturday, October 14, 2006 Time: 11:29 pm
To begin with, life has been dandy fine and calm again. Much gratitude to those few who leave words of encouragement and motivation for me. That was what I needed. (:
To my utter disbelief, my mom actually some what motivated me. Upon seeing the atrocious result printed on my report book, she then began enumerating the things that I should do for each particular subject, what and/or how I should revise and whatsnot. It suddenly triggered me that she has always been there for me but apparently, I took that for granted. A few days back, I was overwhelmed when I saw my room spick and span. My room has always been messy,dusty and filthy. To add on the list, my room is constantly filled with plenty of worksheets(while most of them are rubbish!) and mountains of books,ten year series,five year series and she practically sacrificed 4 hours of her break to actually clean up my room.
After all, all the naggings and scolding from my mom shows that she cares and love me. I'm such an asshole that I actually misunderstood her intentions.
Guess, the month of Ramadhan has really made me into a good better person. I'm proud to say that I'm now doing all the good deeds,throwing away all the vengeance and hatred BUT I've still yet to beribadah(pray).
Suddenly, it dawned on me..
Apa gunanya kalau kita hidup seribu tahun tapi sembahyang pun tidak.
(I'm bad at translating..moreover you peeps should know how atrocious my MT is!) "What's the use living a thousand years when one is not even praying."
What kind of Muslim am I?! Seriously.. I ought to be ashamed of myself.
tsk tsk!
PS: Thinesh, I know you wouldn't like me posting about you but I'm really really sorry that I showed you my attitude problem & made you pissed! I swear that shall never happen again.. And,breaking fast alone is totally PATHETIC! (=
