another week has passed & its already the month of april...gosh!! mid year is drawing closer & i haven't even started my revision... wth mann!!! the whole week i was busy wit my drama rehearsals, schools, extra classes, prefects...urghh!!! but this can't be the reason for me not to do my revision...i have promise myself that i will put a "full-stop" after the singapore youth festival 14 this mth.

i'm so stressed out wit my studies...i have not been coping well wit my studies...esp maths!! honestly speaking i'm not that good in maths since primary school & i'm not a maths lover... but i have improved since sec1 but surprisingly,i failed my maths during the last common test paper. it was shocking for me as i never failed my maths since sec1. (i'm not showing off here or to tell euu guys how well or how bad i have done) my friends always say that i'm clever, hardworking & is a good leader.. well thats just bull-shit!! i'm quite dumb,plain lazy & can't think to make desicions by myself..do i fit to be called clever,hardworking or a leader?????? i'm seriously trying my very very best to focus on my studies & to change myself....

let's put studies aside... few of my frends have been asking me if i feel lonely... well,my answer is obviously no!! the reason is simply because i have my friends & families supporting me, helping me & they love me..(yeah rite!!!!! do u, my frend???) but sometimes you yearn to have a feeling to be loved & cared in a different feeling lyk relationships....for me it is not the right time to have realtionships & thinking about relationships really is a big factor!!! i mean having a relationship can't be quite stressful lyk studies...having relationships is fragile... you have to care for one another, love, understand each other feelings...hmm,gosh!! its difficult to handle relationships... lyk my frends hu have steady aren't doin well either... they're thinkin of breaking-up wit their bf cos they have neglect their studies or their studies have dropped & have been goin out most of the time.. thats stupid,don u think so??! first of all,wen they are unattached they are looking for love but wen they're attached they simply wanna let go of it... another factor why they have are not doin well is because of their parents.wen u're in relationships u won't let ur parents noe rite??! so wen they noe, it will be a very big problem..if u're not careful & u may fought wit ur bf it will be very dangerous...this fighting my lead to break-ups & grls will feel hurt & they cry..but i heard that sometyms guys even punch or slap their grls..thats horrible!!! the part which i really think is humourous is dat they're even thinkin abt marriages in a few yrs tym...thats jus so dumb!!!!

and they will tend to discuss abt their relationships probs in class & wen i try to give em advice, they will say "you're not in shoes..u don understand what i'm goin thru!!" urgghh!! sometimes i give up...if they have prob & they asked me i will just keep my mouth shut so it will be less burden for me!!!! hehe... but some pple who have relationships are doin very well!! wads the secret behind it??? hmm,.....

well,so i'm not goin to have relationship for the tym being..i'm jus not ready to face all these problems...so yah!!! hehe..whoa!!!i cant imagine that i'm quite good at tokin abt relationships!!!heh..

another week has passed & its already the month of april...gosh!! mid year is drawing closer & i haven't even started my revision... wth mann!!! the whole week i was busy wit my drama rehearsals, schools, extra classes, prefects...urghh!!! but this can't be the reason for me not to do my revision...i have promise myself that i will put a "full-stop" after the singapore youth festival 14 this mth.

i'm so stressed out wit my studies...i have not been coping well wit my studies...esp maths!! honestly speaking i'm not that good in maths since primary school & i'm not a maths lover... but i have improved since sec1 but surprisingly,i failed my maths during the last common test paper. it was shocking for me as i never failed my maths since sec1. (i'm not showing off here or to tell euu guys how well or how bad i have done) my friends always say that i'm clever, hardworking & is a good leader.. well thats just bull-shit!! i'm quite dumb,plain lazy & can't think to make desicions by myself..do i fit to be called clever,hardworking or a leader?????? i'm seriously trying my very very best to focus on my studies & to change myself....

let's put studies aside... few of my frends have been asking me if i feel lonely... well,my answer is obviously no!! the reason is simply because i have my friends & families supporting me, helping me & they love me..(yeah rite!!!!! do u, my frend???) but sometimes you yearn to have a feeling to be loved & cared in a different feeling lyk relationships....for me it is not the right time to have realtionships & thinking about relationships really is a big factor!!! i mean having a relationship can't be quite stressful lyk studies...having relationships is fragile... you have to care for one another, love, understand each other feelings...hmm,gosh!! its difficult to handle relationships... lyk my frends hu have steady aren't doin well either... they're thinkin of breaking-up wit their bf cos they have neglect their studies or their studies have dropped & have been goin out most of the time.. thats stupid,don u think so??! first of all,wen they are unattached they are looking for love but wen they're attached they simply wanna let go of it... another factor why they have are not doin well is because of their parents.wen u're in relationships u won't let ur parents noe rite??! so wen they noe, it will be a very big problem..if u're not careful & u may fought wit ur bf it will be very dangerous...this fighting my lead to break-ups & grls will feel hurt & they cry..but i heard that sometyms guys even punch or slap their grls..thats horrible!!! the part which i really think is humourous is dat they're even thinkin abt marriages in a few yrs tym...thats jus so dumb!!!!

and they will tend to discuss abt their relationships probs in class & wen i try to give em advice, they will say "you're not in shoes..u don understand what i'm goin thru!!" urgghh!! sometimes i give up...if they have prob & they asked me i will just keep my mouth shut so it will be less burden for me!!!! hehe... but some pple who have relationships are doin very well!! wads the secret behind it??? hmm,.....

well,so i'm not goin to have relationship for the tym being..i'm jus not ready to face all these problems...so yah!!! hehe..whoa!!!i cant imagine that i'm quite good at tokin abt relationships!!!heh..